inevitable.
had a rather interesting night i’d say. asides the usual routine of seeing someone. just so you know i don’t dread seeing you and still look forward to it daily without fail. anyways, just rather unexpected to come across but yet again it is somewhat expected. it’s evident i’ve got nothing to avoid and nothing to hide at all. also people come and go in life, it’s inevitable. bound to happen somehow. so coming across was nothing to be surprised about to me at least.
just found it really awkward as i was a blur and suddenly her sister comes up to me and says hi. she’s a friendly one so it’s alright. said my thing or two and left eventually but after seeing her i hate to say this but i felt hurt. i know it’s someone i once trusted and considered close to me and it should seem indifferent now but i still feel it somehow. guess it happens when you’re left to blame without even an explanation.
mind me but i’d rather be shot at point blank rather than be a target from afar.
at least i know through time i’ve changed. found new things. know myself a little better and maybe gotten a little wiser.
but at that point somehow found it hard to look at someone i once truly thought was a friend for life that ended up treating me that way but then again i look at that someone i was with and then it felt better. i felt comfort knowing that this is someone i know cares and is for real and would be honest with me even if i were wrong and do me the favour of shooting me at point blank.
it’s no one to blame. perhaps just the course it was suppose to take anyways. i didn’t lose much along the way. maybe it takes losing some in the form of pain and you gain something better. i know i have, he was with me there and then.
i’m a pretty lucky girl. got people like that around me. not to forget my bestie who ditched me today or even aussie fuck suey or even my girls. i’m good.
perhaps in time it’ll be over. i don’t need the drama. getting a little too old for it. i don’t take faults or guilts and keep it in either. it’s unnecessary.
time will tell.
the sound of music.
yes, i know it sounds rather unlikely of me to write something about this. somehow just had some thoughts about it and figured i’d say my thing or two about it.
so just about every child of the 80’s would know this or even way before that. i know it for it’s something everyone i know somehow knows it. most of which would remember it by heart.
it starts off by when we were little somehow we know ‘do re mi’ or ‘edelweiss’ by heart for some weird reason. of course we remember how much fun the seven children had with fraulein maria of course.
then into your teens if you watch it again then you pay attention to liesl being 16 going on 17. somehow there’s just something about being 16 when you’re in your teens. it’s the whole idea of sweet sixteen i guess. weird but works.
then as you get older that when you figure that the captain is pretty darn good looking and just seem to pay attention to every little detail. also not to forget paying attention to how gorgeous the house is and seems like the perfect dream. funny how hollywood works way back in the days.
my whole point is that the movie might be way older than i even am but somehow through the years as we grow older we never seem to get sick of watching it over and over again and somehow still find a way to relate to it. perhaps it’s just a really fond reminder of childhood. anyways, by far this is my favourite scene of it.
somehow i find all the little details gorgeous. the women in really gorgeous dresses and every detail seems perfect and somehow old movies seem to make much more sense eventhough it may seem very much dreamlike. mind me, i’m a sucker for old movies. something about them that seems appealing. call me corny or whatever you want but i find it nice. so deal with it.
retro.
i know it’s been awhile since i last posted. was initially planning a long awaited update but currently lost my mood to blog and on a spree of listening to retro music in order to lighten up the mood a little.
so how retro we’re talking about?
try tevin campbell or keith sweat or 3T or some old fashioned michael jackson. it’s a long list. just about anything i haven’t listened to in a very very long time. got another one stuck in my head so going to spend time now figuring that out.
til some other time in a better state.
