obviously me.

Time has passed by pretty quickly. Been some time since i last posted something. well, that was an emotional rollercoaster but i think i’m good now. just needed some good time off.

so spent the day at home since i’m on break for the week. well, just went out for dinner with my unidentical twin, pearly and had the long conversations over dinner then came home and decided to clean out my closet since its been a very long time since i’ve done so. so left the playlist going on shuffle mode and continued getting with the cleaning out. then went through my clothes and was laughing at myself for the many fashion phases i’ve been through. somehow back then i had a pretty funky sense of style and noticed how far i’ve matured from that also how much i’ve gone down in sizes since i was swimming in some of my older stuff. as my girlfriends mentioned before apparently now my style is abit more sophisticated. not too sure since i’m not the best judge of me.

then while cleaning up a song i haven’t listened to in a very very long time starts playing. it was brian mcknight – still. this song somehow brought back many memories. not to say the fondest one’s but yet in a way they were. it reminded me of someone that made a significance in my life. well, its an ex but gotten over it. was just sitting back and thought of old times. i felt happy in a way for with him it was the first time i really knew what it felt like being in love. yes, for that once i admit i was. it was just something special about it. it certainly wasn’t perfect but it felt like it. i didn’t miss him but was in a way thankful that it happened for at least even if i die tonight i knew what it felt like truly being in love.

well, now he’s pretty much a best friend of mine. things never did go our way back then but now we’re friends and i appreciate every bit of it for i know he’s someone i can count on no matter what. out of everything we’ve been through i’ve learnt alot from it.

i listen alot to the lyrics of a song thus still in a way still leaves a mark just that i look at it differently now. back then i’d listen to it thinking and knowing i still loved him. but now i listen to it and think that i still do love him but in a very different way, as someone that made a difference in my life and most importantly as a friend that’s always there and i’d do the same for him. thank you.

fond memories just through the little things we come across in a day. i think of the days where i first truly fell in love and with friends i think of back in the days where pearly and i hated the living daylights out of each other and now we’re bestest of friends that in many ways she is family and my twin. funny how time passes by and how things change. then with the clothings i see how far i’ve been through time. somehow i never thought of it but seeing it now i feel it being even more significant.

well, sometimes we’re just so busy with life and we don’t necessarily accept the changes til we sit back and look at the reasoning behind it. as for me, i know i have changed but i’m hoping it is all for the better and i’m yet to see what is there ahead of me.

as for all those that has been or is apart of my life, thank you for making a difference.

that’s for cleaning out my closet of both the physical clothings and things i’ve put aside.