conscience.
It was just a few days ago where this struck my mind. Remember how in cartoons there’s always the conscience where there’s the little angel and little devil one on each shoulder telling the character what to do. It struck my mind because i somewhat do have that. No, they aren’t on my shoulder but basically i have the friend that brings out all the good in me and also the friend that unleashes my darker side where i can commit evil without guilt.
Perhaps i’m the only one who has that i don’t really know. First comes the better half of mine which seems to bring out the better part of me that seems to be angelic where i just don’t do nothing that could lead to bad outcomes. Then comes this friend of mine which i’ve known for over a year and everytime i’m with him, i’m definitely up to no good and it actually is fun.
It’s funny how influences work. As hard headed as i can be its hard to believe that i can be influenced as such. Maybe it’s like what my evil conscience says, “you need to fuel up both sides in order to create a balance.” Perhaps it’s true i can’t quite tell.
At the end of it i’m left to wonder only this, how do you justify good or bad? How do you define it? Because sometimes doing good could lead to bad outcomes and sometimes just by doing something bad could end up resolving a situation. So how do you really justify it? It’s a question that’s dangerous as it could question a person’s beliefs. How do you know if you are really doing something that indeed is good for all? What is there to justify so? Then comes the question of how do you differentiate heaven and hell? Is there such an existence? Or is it just merely a figment of a man’s imagination just as a drive for people so that there is no fear with unfamiliarity. I know i’m filled with questions that lead to no answer but still perhaps it’s a drive that keeps us all alive. Perhaps we’re all staying in our comfort zone unwilling to question the unfamiliar as it could or would scare the living daylights out of you. Perhaps someday we’ll know.
As for my good and dark side? Perhaps i really do need a balance or else i’d end up with a missing void in my life. Perhaps…
