obviously me.

So it’s been a pretty long time since i’ve written anything. Forgive me as i have been busy. It’s world cup season and i’ve been sleeping on the couch since last friday and my back is beginning to kill me. It’s okay since it’s a once in four years event and it’s something i never miss no matter what. Also i’m back to classes and my responsibilities so my schedule is classes then clubs then football and all my time is taken up so any time in between is used for sleep. So that explains my disappearance. For now i’m in college but i’m free so i’ll just write about the current issue running in my mind.

So what’s the topic of the day? It’s smoking. Yes, i’m going to talk about smoking. Anyways, who would know better? Smoking, i admit its a bad habit that is why i don’t encourage my friends to do so. If they don’t want to hear it fine. Not my problem. So why do i say it’s bad?

First and foremost, health issues. I have my fair share of health issues. I think it’s stupid to even start but as for me its my cure for stress. Why? Nicotine is a muscle relaxant. I’ve grown accustomed to it. That’s my problem. My advice is that you don’t make that same choice.

Then for those kids that think it’s cool to smoke. It’s NOT. It’s a major turn off. I know i am. It’s not cool to waste your parents cash on cigarettes to look cool. It just ain’t. I find it pathetic to see kids smoking with the so-called ‘tai lo’ pose and the best part is when they don’t really inhale. It just pisses me off that they’re wasting the cigarette. Kids back when i started a pack of 20 cost like about RM3 something. Now it’s bloody hell RM7 for a 20. Don’t bloody waste it. Grrr…

Next thing is not related to the wastage. Back to the health issues. Trust me after years of being a chimney it ain’t cool to have health issues. Coughing up blood is NOT cool. Trust me. So just don’t bother starting in the first place. I think i’ve made myself very clear. Don’t take up the bad habit i did. My big mistake in life.

Next, why even with the increased price of cigarettes underage teenagers still smoke? Simple. They made the stupid decision i did. Also for those from the ministry, making them pay a fine is NOT going to help. The parents are still paying for their bad habit and the fine as well. They should send the kids for community service picking up all the cigarette on the roadside or clean up the mess of patients in the ICU for those suffering diseases caused by smoking. Basically get them to clean up the crap. They would swear they never want to light another stick of cigarette in their lives.

So that’s all i have to say for now. Think about it. You tell me your opinion about it. Now i shall proceed with my busy schedule. Will come back with bigger and better issues. Have a pleasant evening.

As for those watching the FIFA world cup 2006.

another day has passed by again. First day for the third semester. Wasn’t really that impressive. Rather quiet class which suddenly makes me miss the ‘inner circle’. Well, they were apart of another intake. I miss you guys so so much. Now that sounded way too emotional.

Before i get more emotional let’s get to what’s the topic of the day. Well, its regarding the whole idea of sexy. It was influenced by an incident today. Anyways, from my point of view i think sexy refers more to an attitude rather than showing more skin than cloth. Why so? It’s far more of a turn on when you got the right words and moves rather than relying just on physical appearance. I find it pathetic. Everyone is on a bloody battle of who looks better in less fabric. Yea, i would love to look good in a bikini but NOT for everyone to look at and go like “aww, daymn! she’s fine!” but just be happy with myself so at least i don’t dread looking in the mirror or looking at my pictures. Forgive me for being a tad vain.

After looking up the dictionary, which basically i am a walking dictionary. The definition of sexy is sexually attractive or stimulating. Well, if you could talk to someone and turn them on its still considered as sexy. But having lack of fabric just refers to sexy in the wrong way. Well, there are two ways of looking at this. Both are different views i’ve contemplated about.

First view, as a female there’s something we’d all like to maintain. It’s called pride and dignity i’m sure a man would love a woman who is able to carry herself well. Well, you can do whatever naughty business you want but just maintain a really good profile. There’s no neccesity to bare so much skin. Leave something for the men to wonder. Apart of keeping them coming back for more.

Second view, when you wear so little even with the weather as an excuse doesn’t leave anything to wonder. Forgive me for being very blunt and direct at this point. When you cover so little he already knows what to expect and might as well have sex in his mind instead of bothering going through the hassle and the risk of bad sex.

Well, didn’t mean to offend anyone in this subject. Sorry if i did in any possible way. You want to bare skin fine. Just dress according to the appropriate occasion. Bikini to the beach? Fine. Just dress to the occasion. Bottomline of this is how the impression you give reflects on you but most of all is how we should maintain our pride and dignity and for the love of God have some self respect.

Another ordinary day just went by. Actually survived staying at home the entire day. Had plans to go out but eventually just got lazy and was just talking to my ‘brudder’ on the phone the whole time. Yes, i’ve been an angel. Don’t believe it? Choke it down honey.

Well, only interesting thing today was the conversation with my bro. Talking about everything and anything. The boredom just added more ridiculous topics. Like what do i consider a turn on and a turn off. What’s my definition of kissable and so on and so forth. I’m proned to asking and talking about the stupidest things on earth when boredom strikes me. Shoot me please.

So what’s the topic of the day? Well, this time around its about the whole dream guy idealogy. Why bother discussing this? This is due to the fact some people might need a reality check. It came into mind during that long discussion on the phone. Got me thinking. I actually have realistic criterias for the guys i date. I’m not telling what they are for they might be used against me but its not more than 5 criterias.

Well, i find it ridiculous when i have friends that tell me about their dream guy. Why? Just for your information, ‘dream guy’ in other words ‘in your dreams’. Now, that sounded harsh but its just reality where nothing’s perfect. To find the perfect man is like expecting to find a mother that doesn’t nag. Well, something like that. Also trust me, it is almost impossible to find the perfect woman either. So this works both ways.

So why is it impossible? Here’s an example list.
1. has to be tall.
2. has to be sweet.
3. has to remember my birthday.
4. has to dress well.
5. has to smell good.
6. has to be good looking.
7. have blonde/brown/god-knows-what-colour hair.
8. have blue/hazel/brown/green eyes.
9. has to be understanding.
10. have a sense of humour.
11. has to be faithful.
12. got straight teeth.
13. fair/dark/ tanned skin.
14. knows how to play a music instrument.
15. can sing.
and the list goes on and on and on… [its actually neverending.]

Where on earth do you expect to find someone to fulfill your description? The man up there is already busy enough solving the world’s issues and hoping that you actually do help to make a difference and there you are hoping for the impossible.

So forget that idealogy for that person will never exist. With the exception of when you fall in love then they whole description changes to fulfill that person you are in love with.

Conclusion? Its a fact that dream guys/girls do not exist so we should just learn to accept people for who they are. As i have read somewhere before, ‘we came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.’